you know what.....
I still feel pregnant.
And dammit....I'm not losing hope.
After talking with Milenka...I came to see that the way my ultrasound was preformed was a bit lame! The ob makes you pee in a cup when you first arrive...to check for what ever it is they do when they dip that little strip in the pee.....well I had a completely empy bladder....not to mention the equipment at the ob isn't exactly state of the art.....meaning.....I am almost positive that machine is older than me.....and last but not least....I have that massive.....(read:stomach deserves own zip code) stomach so you know what......
I'm not ready for the "sorry for your loss" comments just yet.....
I've booked my ultrasound for Wednesday at the hospital and it's FIRST thing in the morning :) 7:15 is when I check in....I have to drink 24 ounces of water before going in with the last sip to be drank no later than 6:45 am.
I'm hopeful....
I have sore bb's like a motha.
so don't look at them wrong or I'll cry becuase you'll make them hurt.
dammit....there just has to be a baby in there........
I have to beleive that is the case.....for my sanity!
We'll see on Wednesday bright and early if I'm right.
I've insisted my husband join me for the visit because *if* there were to be bad news revealed to me....I could NOT take that alone. NO WAY, no how.
So the point of this entry is....I'm still feeling pregnant.
I still think I am pregnant....
and I'm not giving up hope....
dammit the ultrasound was done on an empty bladder....through layers of my belly...err...fat....and on a piece of poo poo machine......
I've got to have hope....because all of those things equal....wrong.
It was done all wrong........and I'm hoping to see a wiggly little chiderlink when I go in on Wednesday.
So I'm renewing hope for this pregnancy.....until further notice. :)
I still feel pregnant.
And dammit....I'm not losing hope.
After talking with Milenka...I came to see that the way my ultrasound was preformed was a bit lame! The ob makes you pee in a cup when you first arrive...to check for what ever it is they do when they dip that little strip in the pee.....well I had a completely empy bladder....not to mention the equipment at the ob isn't exactly state of the art.....meaning.....I am almost positive that machine is older than me.....and last but not least....I have that massive.....(read:stomach deserves own zip code) stomach so you know what......
I'm not ready for the "sorry for your loss" comments just yet.....
I've booked my ultrasound for Wednesday at the hospital and it's FIRST thing in the morning :) 7:15 is when I check in....I have to drink 24 ounces of water before going in with the last sip to be drank no later than 6:45 am.
I'm hopeful....
I have sore bb's like a motha.
so don't look at them wrong or I'll cry becuase you'll make them hurt.
dammit....there just has to be a baby in there........
I have to beleive that is the case.....for my sanity!
We'll see on Wednesday bright and early if I'm right.
I've insisted my husband join me for the visit because *if* there were to be bad news revealed to me....I could NOT take that alone. NO WAY, no how.
So the point of this entry is....I'm still feeling pregnant.
I still think I am pregnant....
and I'm not giving up hope....
dammit the ultrasound was done on an empty bladder....through layers of my belly...err...fat....and on a piece of poo poo machine......
I've got to have hope....because all of those things equal....wrong.
It was done all wrong........and I'm hoping to see a wiggly little chiderlink when I go in on Wednesday.
So I'm renewing hope for this pregnancy.....until further notice. :)
4 Comments:
I'll be thinking of you, Brooke. Milenka is totally right -- given the circumstances, that u/s meant absolutely nothing. Since you're still feeling pregnant, I think there's still a lot of hope. I just wish you could get another u/s (on a better machine!) sooner.
Yippee Brooke! I am cheering an dhopeful with you. I was thinking the same things. And you're too sick not to be pg. You know your body better than some old machine! So hang in there Brooke and I will be waiting with baited breath for Wednesday!
Damn doctor caused way too much stress with that piece o' shit u/s. I still think you should switch just on priciple! :P
I'm holding out hope for Wednesday, too. And I had better hear from you before midnight your time that day! :P
Im not losing hope for you Brooke. If you think you are then you are. Dr. make people worry for no reason sometimes. I hope everything goes well this Wednesday. I will be thinking of you and praying for you.
I also wanted to wish you a happy first mommy to be Mother's day!! I wish you many many many more!!!!
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