20 week doc visit

Today I had my 20 week visit with my doc. The baby is doing just fine....I lost more weight since the last visit two weeks ago...which I already knew....but my blood pressure was good....we went over the ultrasound I had and everything was normal :)
Hot diggity to that! We discussed the things I had to discuss....which were the funny red bumps of dry skin on my face....she suggested cortaid for them....so I bought some of that....then I talked to her about my eye that hurts....she suggested getting some sort of a 'patch' to cover it when it hurts to reduce the strain on it...and to keep it 'in the dark' I looked at Target while getting the cortaid but couldn't find anything to cover ones eye.....hahahhaa....and I didnt exactly feel like looking around....I felt like I was going to barf in the aisle I was standing in....so I just said screw it...and brought myself the cortaid and a 7-up...and was on my way back home...the last thing we talked about was my situation and work....I've been out on disability now for a month due to this...but today she said straight out "this doesn't get better for some people it doesn't get worse but it doesn't get better for some and I don't want you going back to work we need you in bed and resting so you don't get weak" so that's that. She filled out the disability papers for both my work and the state.....so now I'm officially not working for good. I couldn't imagine being at work in this state for any longer than I suffered through it in the begining....it was awful....being soooo weak and still being expected to perform all my job duties....and I work a job that requires weekly over time....so yeah...it was not neat.
I have begun going to the doctor now every two weeks to keep track of my weight loss and health issues. She has been a doctor for almost 20 years and I'm only the 3rd paitent she's had with this issue....I think she's handling it nicely though. So I go back to the doctor on August 14th just to make sure me and the baby are still doing ok nutrition wise...

Feeling down

I've noticed the past couple of days I've been really 'down'
I'm really bored all the time...
I'm too barfy to really go anywhere for more than a QUICK trip...which is rare in itself anyway...
I hurt.
I'm just noticing this whole hyperemesis starting to get me down. I continue to expell from my body what was recently placed in it via my mouth...into the toilet. I don't remember a day in my recent past where I haven't thrown up....that's kind of sad.
My right eye HURTS like a motha from all the throwing up....I can't look to the left with it....when I do look to the left it just automatically closes becuase it hurts bad when I look sideways. It feels I guess like a pulled muscle in my eye....if that makes sense....it's pretty painful. My left side of my jaw is now popping....my right side has always popped thanks to my TMJ but I'm so used to it that it doesn't bother me anymore....but the left side now popping also is odd...both sides pop now. Not cool. My throat is always sore from all the acid I regurgitate....so my hubby got me some sore throat drops. What a guy.
This is just a complaining post. I feel bad typing all this negative stuff...but it's truly how I'm feeling right now. Down in the dumps. sigh.

My eye hurts. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

On a bright note....we received two packages in the mail for baby this week :) So exciting to open them :) The first was a baby book to write all the babys firsts in it....then today we got another package, twas the Guess How Much I Love You set I had on my Target registry :) Loved it :) My little brother (he's 11) picked it out for the baby :) It's nice to get a knock at the door and no one be there when you open it up except for a little package :)

almost 19 weeks

Shortly after I wrote my last entry I went to the hospital where I received some help for my dehydration. Again my veins werer collapsed and after 3 pokes they finally got the IV in. Those IV needles HURT I tell you!

We got our crib and bedding set and even a glider/ottoman set all set up in the babys room. We had to order the dresser/changing table combo because the store was all out of them. So it should arrive sometime next week.

We got all the furniture in "natural" so the dresser WE got does match the set I just can't find a picture of it in natural online :) here are some pictures from various websites of the stuff we got.....

Not doing so hot

Well I felt good for about two days after getting out of the hospital....mostly because I was hydrated and no longer weak. I hadn't gained weight per say in the hospital because they were merely pumping me full of fluids which in turn (TMI) came right back out the other end as the same fluids they went in as (END TMI) but I was hydrated and feeling good(ish) for the time being.
Well...not so much anymore. My Husband has been away on a business trip and was due to come back in the wee hours on Friday morning....So I've been here along...just me and my pooch.....barfing my brains out ****continued in a moment...I have to barf right now****

OK back.

anyway....I was here alone barfing my life away....when my Hubby called this morning I told him how my day before had been and he asked if I wanted him to come home from his trip? I said no....I said you'll be home a in a couple days anyway it's fine....well he called me later telling me he is at the airport and coming home....well he's in Tennesee and we live in California....so he won't be home for a while...but at least he's coming home...

The Doctors phone lines are closed currently and do not reopen until 2 pm so I'm going to call her at that time and see what she wants me to do. I'm down another 3.5 pounds in the past couple of days and again nothing is staying down.

Let me just say, this is going to be our only baby. I am not going through this again. Everyone says oh you'll forget....you'll want another....no....wrong. How can I forget being so weak...how can I forget throwing up 20 times in one day for (so far) 5 months straight? I can't. It feels awful. I feel awful....the only good to come of this is my daughter at the end of all this....and then we're done....no more kids for me......we can always adopt later.....if we feel the need for another.

Anyway...this is a site that sort of explains what I have this is what the 'problem' with me is....
http://www.hyperemesis.org/hyperemesis-gravidarum/

I don't know how to make links...becuase I'm lame....and I'm too weak right now to find the time to do it....so you can copy and paste it and read it if you're interested.

We're back!

Look at my beautiful baby!!!!!!!


Oh and by the way.......It's a GIRL!!!!!!!!!

We're so happy!

discharged

Well I've spent the past couple of days in the hospital because of severe dehydration. I was unable to keep anything down for 3 full days so I was admitted to the hospital for IV therapy. I was so weak I could barely keep my eyes open. I had made an appointment to see my regular OB/GYN and she took a look at me said "you're lips have no color YOU have no color you're being admitted into the hospital ASAP"
My veins were so collapsed they had a tough time getting the IV in, which is odd for me becuase I've always had "beautiful" veins for shots and such. But with no food or fluid in my system for that long I guess things change. The first thing was to check on the baby with the doppler...baby was fine...it was me they were worried about. I had lost 7 pounds in 7 days and that was not good! (For a total of 12 pounds LOST so far this pregnancy thanks to all the vommiting) (which is NOT what I'm going for here people) After the IV was placed (after 4 docs tried their hand at me...they had to use the ultra sound machine to find a vein.) I just rested in my room I was beyond tired from being so weak.

That night after I was finally able to fall asleep I started to have some odd spasms in my legs, then also my hands were clenching uncontrolably I paged for a nurse and they beeped into my room and I couldn't talk I tried to say "can you send a nurse in" but all that came out was my tongue trying to form the words and unable to. It was SCARY. The nurses all ran into my room they said my body was going into shock from the lack of nutrition and they shoved something else in my IV. They stayed with me and rubbed my back, and calmed me down while this all lasted...after it past (about 30 minutes) I was feeling better....and tired since it was 3 in the morning....they left the room and I was freaked....so I quizzed myself on talking....I tried to say "Brooke" at first I couldn't....it took all my thought to make my mouth form the word....but after a few minutes what ever it was that they put in my IV was working and I was able to say my name again....and then I said "hospital" and I felt good enough to get some rest.....so I was actually able to sleep for 3 whole hours then...and woke up feeling much better. Still nauseated, because my zofran was wearing off....but I'm used to it...it hurts like hell to always be nauseated and throw up I tell you people. But at least I was in good hands....and I was especially thankful I was already in the hospital when my body went into shock....that was S C A R Y!

I got so many flowers while I was in there....but one thing I found quite rude, was my work didn't send me flowers. Rude. My Husbands work sent the biggest boquet I've ever gotten in my LIFE I mean the thing is HUGE and pretty! But my work....nothing....rude. I had many visitors...and people who love me call....my phone rang off the hook....and I was getting flowers and visitors nonstop :) That made me feel special :) But I still find it quite rude that my work didn't send flowers. hrrrmmph.

I'm home now....feeling a bit better.....certainly a whole hell of a lot better than when I went into the hospital since I'm no longer dehydrated....my right arm is quite sore from all the meds being pumped into that arm....but I'm just glad to be back home and that my baby is ok :)

not too much

Tammy I forgot to write you about the medicine you had asked about for my nausea....yes you were right it is Zofran, and it helps the barfing is not gone...but it really decreases when I take it. I had a prenatal visit with my doc yesterday and she wrote me another scrip for it with a refill since it's working at decreasing the amount of barfing through the day.

I got the referral to schedule our "big" ultrasound! I booked the appointment today so it's on July 15th at 9 am....a Saturday! I am stoked! I can't wait to be able to buy boy or girl things!

The wedding was great...the shortest ceremony I've ever seen....but she wanted it short and sweet...it was only about 5 minutes! And the reception was great....my nephew cried his little eyes out when it was time to leave becuase he was scared of leaving his mom for two weeks....but we've done good at keeping him busy and occupied that he's enjoying his time here at his favorite aunties house in the whole world :)

So we only have 9 days till we find out if we're having a girl baby or a boy baby.....

Belly pics :)

Once again it is that time :)

Here is the shot of me taken last night...at 16 weeks 1 day.



and then the last one compared to this one....