Madelynns birth story

I was at a normal OB appt with a b/p of 170/117 and my doc said....you're going to the hospital to be induced now...goodbye! hahahaa.....so I was checked at the doc and was 1cm 70% effaced....and was told I'd have to have a 2 part induction since my cervix was not 'ripe' yet....so they put in a cervadil...to soften my cervix....and i laid still for 4 hours and let it do it's thang....it had to stay in for a total of 12 hours...and after i was done with that i was still ONLY 1cm but was now fully effaced....i was annoyed i hadn't dilated anymore...but was told we'd do the 'next step' the following morning at 5 am with pitocin...and was given a sleeping aid to catch some zzzz's since I'd have a "rough day ahead" well.....I woke up to some major contractions at 4 am....and had gone into labor on my own with out the pitocin! I was checked at 5 and was 3cm dilated...I called hubby (I had sent him home to sleep since I wasn't even getting the pitocin until the next day anyway I figured that would be fine!) I told him I was in PAIN and NEEDED him to come back to the hospital....he said something I'm not sure what but I was having another contraction so I just hung up the phone!

I requested an epidural at this time and waited for the wonder tonic to arrive....it took a bit to see that wonderful man....but when he got there he asked if I'd had my blood work done yet....WHAT....no.....I hadn't had blood work done for a couple days and was told since I was pre-eclamptic I'd have to have blood work done before I could get the epi....so they called the lab and they took my blood after about a 15 minute wait for him to take it...then about 10 minutes for the results to come back...which they did...and it was fine to get the epi.....so I sat on the side of the bed.....hubby was on his way to my side of the bed to have me hang on him to get the epi....when I was about to get it....I suddenly HAD TO PUSH....I couldn't sit still....I just needed to push
So the doc had me lay down to see where I was..if in fact I needed to push or not.....
She checked me...I was 9.5 cm dilated and she said I could push with the next contraction...and the bad news was that I could not get my beloved wonder tonic!

It was at this point I freaked out! I was so scared...I screamed at the top of my lungs in pain....agony....fear...and all that....I remember saying in a moment of pain that "I can't beleive I have to do this with out an epidural" and I tried to cry but no tears would come...and I just needed to push and so I pushed...screamed....pushed....screamed....screamed....pushed....for a while.....it was about 20 minutes or so of pushing....because I was having trouble keeping my push...simply because I was just so scared....I would push for a split second then scream in pain....not holding the push....I could not beleive the pain her head was causing in my body....I felt like I was going to take a huge dump...and said "Holy crap I have to take a crap" and the doctor said "no Brooke that's your baby, you're having a baby" "PUSH" so I pushed.....and her entire body shot out in the two good pushes I actually managed to hold with out wasting my contraction with a scream of pain!
As she slid out my bag of water broke and out her body came she just slid out she was slimy from the water bag....but pretty clean for just being born :)
They put her on my chest and I looked at her and cried....the first thing I remember saying was "she's so small....why is she so small?"
They told me she was fine....
she didn't cry....so they took her to the table to 'rouse' her....she still didn't cry but was alert and looking all around...she came out with her eyes open and just looked around at her blurry new world....
She never did cry that first day...she was so peacful...and calm....she nursed like a champ from the get go....and still is.
She was 5 pounds 9 ounces 18 inches long and has newborn grey eyes...and brown hair with little curls :)
she's a good little lady....she's about to wake up now though so I'm going to go now.....